written with several breaks in between
It's 3pm on Errand Day. I'm smokimg while typing this. The party was quite fun albeit a little too long...We played three games. I'm not sure if parties should accomodate THREE games. But the drinking was fun and oh, the car almost being towed away by the police was also so fun.
Continuing this a couple days later. Errand day started late and we got a few things done. We also picked up coffee at the spot where BZ and I had our first date. Being in those walls, thinking about 7 years ago and who I was. It is at once strange and thrilling and slighlty exhausting if I think about it too much.
There has been an update in my Employement at SB. There may be a possibility to start at a new job later and stay here with BZ a bit longer. I shot off an email yesterday to let's call her Ryan. I don't know when she'll get back to me, but I keep checking my phone and I haven't told BZ because I want it to be a surprise/I don't want him to be hopeful. He kept asking me yesterday what message I was waiting for, I had to be quick on my feet. I said, my mom.
Continuing this a few hours later. I just got off the phone with my parents and sibling. We spoke for 2 hours. We were on Google Maps together looking at how much the roads have changed here in India. I really hope I get to stay back a month longer. But most of me thinks it's ridiculous. I need to face the fact that I'll probably be leaving soon.
Do you know that horrible pit you get in your stomach after you overshare something. Like exposing something to the sun it feels too raw. Maybe I am just hungry. I've felt this way a few times in my life. You'd think I know better by now. Oh well. I'll let you know if it passes.
I hope you're okay and finding things to feel about. Till next time.